Frustration

Frustration!

Hey enigma!

I am bloody frustrated today and this ain’t no kidding! I have always wonder why my life have been like this ever since I was 15 years. What is bothering me are:
Firstly I live in a home where there is a big communication breakdown especially with the MEN and WOMEN! It is a common thing to hear from the ladies and girls that they love their Dad and etc…etc… ME…I would love to say that I do not owe a DAD! I haven’t been speaking to him don’t mentioned a word okay to him ever since I fought with him last year December. ME and Him always have arguments basically because he thinks I want take charge of everything and worst thing he likes to pick on me. We do quarrel but this is the worst! I cannot tolerate him any longer! To what he have done to my mum, god grandma and to my family I am very sure to say I will forgive him but I am SORRY that I will not joined ties with HIM back as normal. I just cannot tolerate him any longer. Yes I do keep grudges and I am the type who hate people to control me for nuts, I hate people to keep telling what to do and what not to do! This is FOOLISH! Nothing can change the fact that I have issues with my Dad and I hate to call him as one.
Next my 2nd bro fadzil. OMG ever since I return from HK after 2 months, he change a lot in terms of the way he talk to elderly and a simple way to describe him is that…I see him as a no manners and no etiquette boy. Before he was not like this but eversince he mix with the “non-educated streets guys” his behaviour are like them. What a pity fad I wud say. I told him off he don’t like it and still stubborn to be the same. FINE! DO WHATEVER YOU WANT and I am sure YOU WILL REGRET!...I hate it when this two people I just mentioned start to make a havoc in the house! I pity my mum koz she has been a very patient loyal wife and mom to tolerate all their nonsense but ME AS A SISTER AND DAUGHTER I DON”T!!!!!! Thanks to situation, I am hating relationship and thanks to situation too I am hating FAMILY. I know people out there will have another view of me but I don’t care koz I believe of myself more!

Nasha
5/7/09, 1:29am