Confused

I admit I have lots of boyfriends but the one that I really like is the ones which I am having difficulty communicating. For Instance, Azhar. He is my senior from ITE of the same course. To most of my classmates, they just do not like him but for me I just find him harmless and nice to be with. But ever since I know him up-close, I realize that he is having lots of personality change! HOLY SHIT! There is times when he will non stop SMS me and this can last a week then he will go silent and usually the silentness can last for months. Frankly speaking, lots of things I know about him is from my own research and not from his mouth! Well I am considered lucky to get the source correct but I am frustrated why there are things he hides from me and till now I swear I have doubts with him. Come on Aisah move on darling! Azhar won’t like you Please AIsah! I have been saying things a lot of times but truelly I just cannot forget him. I donnoe why.
Azhar I just hope one day u come to ur sense on what games ur playing with me. I just think I am stupid and very very stupid to like a guy like you. Jezzzzzz!...