Hey Enigma!
He is showing me his old attitude again and I am pissed off and even i never really show but deep in my heart i am really pissed.Ok if you were to ask me directly do i like him? Of course it goanna be an ultimate yes! Next have i show my feeelings to him? ya i had even tell him more than once! Have i kissed him? Of course! The problem is why is he showing me the weird attitude that i just don understand! Using me? desperate of sex? haiyo! Oh god please show me the right direction whether this men is for me. Amin.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Sunday was hell
Haiz...what i can say about sunday!
I just hate to hear children to be rude to parents. Basically after my 2nd brother bring my 3rd brother out and they came home late and i was angry when my mum ask him nicely where is adik and he started to raise his voice upon my mum. Jezz! wat the fuck sia! so i was boiling home and i started yelling at him back and both uf us came to a chaos. And my mama is the funny type she scolded me back and told me to shut up! what the hell. Oh my god i just cannot tolerate this favourtism and chaotic things happening to me now. I am determined to leave the house and stay by myself.
nasha
I just hate to hear children to be rude to parents. Basically after my 2nd brother bring my 3rd brother out and they came home late and i was angry when my mum ask him nicely where is adik and he started to raise his voice upon my mum. Jezz! wat the fuck sia! so i was boiling home and i started yelling at him back and both uf us came to a chaos. And my mama is the funny type she scolded me back and told me to shut up! what the hell. Oh my god i just cannot tolerate this favourtism and chaotic things happening to me now. I am determined to leave the house and stay by myself.
nasha
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Everything seems not right! why?
Yesterday was my hectic day and i was busy with General meetings and editting reports and think about choir. I pity xx..it seems that the commitee members are not having a good communication
Confused
I admit I have lots of boyfriends but the one that I really like is the ones which I am having difficulty communicating. For Instance, Azhar. He is my senior from ITE of the same course. To most of my classmates, they just do not like him but for me I just find him harmless and nice to be with. But ever since I know him up-close, I realize that he is having lots of personality change! HOLY SHIT! There is times when he will non stop SMS me and this can last a week then he will go silent and usually the silentness can last for months. Frankly speaking, lots of things I know about him is from my own research and not from his mouth! Well I am considered lucky to get the source correct but I am frustrated why there are things he hides from me and till now I swear I have doubts with him. Come on Aisah move on darling! Azhar won’t like you Please AIsah! I have been saying things a lot of times but truelly I just cannot forget him. I donnoe why.
Azhar I just hope one day u come to ur sense on what games ur playing with me. I just think I am stupid and very very stupid to like a guy like you. Jezzzzzz!...
Azhar I just hope one day u come to ur sense on what games ur playing with me. I just think I am stupid and very very stupid to like a guy like you. Jezzzzzz!...
Frustration
Frustration!
Hey enigma!
I am bloody frustrated today and this ain’t no kidding! I have always wonder why my life have been like this ever since I was 15 years. What is bothering me are:
Firstly I live in a home where there is a big communication breakdown especially with the MEN and WOMEN! It is a common thing to hear from the ladies and girls that they love their Dad and etc…etc… ME…I would love to say that I do not owe a DAD! I haven’t been speaking to him don’t mentioned a word okay to him ever since I fought with him last year December. ME and Him always have arguments basically because he thinks I want take charge of everything and worst thing he likes to pick on me. We do quarrel but this is the worst! I cannot tolerate him any longer! To what he have done to my mum, god grandma and to my family I am very sure to say I will forgive him but I am SORRY that I will not joined ties with HIM back as normal. I just cannot tolerate him any longer. Yes I do keep grudges and I am the type who hate people to control me for nuts, I hate people to keep telling what to do and what not to do! This is FOOLISH! Nothing can change the fact that I have issues with my Dad and I hate to call him as one.
Next my 2nd bro fadzil. OMG ever since I return from HK after 2 months, he change a lot in terms of the way he talk to elderly and a simple way to describe him is that…I see him as a no manners and no etiquette boy. Before he was not like this but eversince he mix with the “non-educated streets guys” his behaviour are like them. What a pity fad I wud say. I told him off he don’t like it and still stubborn to be the same. FINE! DO WHATEVER YOU WANT and I am sure YOU WILL REGRET!...I hate it when this two people I just mentioned start to make a havoc in the house! I pity my mum koz she has been a very patient loyal wife and mom to tolerate all their nonsense but ME AS A SISTER AND DAUGHTER I DON”T!!!!!! Thanks to situation, I am hating relationship and thanks to situation too I am hating FAMILY. I know people out there will have another view of me but I don’t care koz I believe of myself more!
Nasha
5/7/09, 1:29am
Hey enigma!
I am bloody frustrated today and this ain’t no kidding! I have always wonder why my life have been like this ever since I was 15 years. What is bothering me are:
Firstly I live in a home where there is a big communication breakdown especially with the MEN and WOMEN! It is a common thing to hear from the ladies and girls that they love their Dad and etc…etc… ME…I would love to say that I do not owe a DAD! I haven’t been speaking to him don’t mentioned a word okay to him ever since I fought with him last year December. ME and Him always have arguments basically because he thinks I want take charge of everything and worst thing he likes to pick on me. We do quarrel but this is the worst! I cannot tolerate him any longer! To what he have done to my mum, god grandma and to my family I am very sure to say I will forgive him but I am SORRY that I will not joined ties with HIM back as normal. I just cannot tolerate him any longer. Yes I do keep grudges and I am the type who hate people to control me for nuts, I hate people to keep telling what to do and what not to do! This is FOOLISH! Nothing can change the fact that I have issues with my Dad and I hate to call him as one.
Next my 2nd bro fadzil. OMG ever since I return from HK after 2 months, he change a lot in terms of the way he talk to elderly and a simple way to describe him is that…I see him as a no manners and no etiquette boy. Before he was not like this but eversince he mix with the “non-educated streets guys” his behaviour are like them. What a pity fad I wud say. I told him off he don’t like it and still stubborn to be the same. FINE! DO WHATEVER YOU WANT and I am sure YOU WILL REGRET!...I hate it when this two people I just mentioned start to make a havoc in the house! I pity my mum koz she has been a very patient loyal wife and mom to tolerate all their nonsense but ME AS A SISTER AND DAUGHTER I DON”T!!!!!! Thanks to situation, I am hating relationship and thanks to situation too I am hating FAMILY. I know people out there will have another view of me but I don’t care koz I believe of myself more!
Nasha
5/7/09, 1:29am
Monday, June 29, 2009
MST MST MST
Oh my god today is the start of MST!! Hell ya men! how was the paper ehk? fair i would rate but to look at zhong hong paper oh great its fantastic...he like writing university essay of 1500 words damn it...haha...today went home wif my 2 gfs...fana look exhausted,,fizah sian look..mat kerisauan face...me chin cai la...haha...waiting for dinner with my gf at tpyh and steamboat summore...I miss Him...***.........Last word before go off..I will survive tmr paper! wee
Nasha
Nasha
Monday, June 22, 2009
22 July 09
Hemm it is Monday today and what shall i say.....
Had geMS discussion from 1230pm to 330pm. Hand over my notes to selamat at somerset at 4pm. Spent my day at Amk library cafe till 0830pm.
My week last week was hell. I just don't know why i get frustrated with books, lecture notes, reports and anything got to do with my bloody diploma in food science technology course. I have been wondering whether is this what i really want though i wan be a Food microbiologist. Haks! there me go again. Fickle mindset! ahhaa...
Well i really want to work with the Health Science Authorities and also with music industry.
I love singing and yeah i love the piano and keyboards.
Niwaes last friday practice i just don noe why i am very different towards him. I am always wondering whether is he attached. He seems to drop at Raffles station if he were to take the MRT with me but i myself is curious on who is he meeting. Aisah why must you care of Him who don actually care about you! God damn it! It is called love. I like him and i hate it koz it is just making me answer questions and yet i have to figure out myself. Gheez!
Frankly, i think i am being paranoid lah. I wish i had a chance to have a conversation which is appropriate with him and not something technical about choir. What matters most is I like you and i don bother what people are going to say about you or my feelings.
Had geMS discussion from 1230pm to 330pm. Hand over my notes to selamat at somerset at 4pm. Spent my day at Amk library cafe till 0830pm.
My week last week was hell. I just don't know why i get frustrated with books, lecture notes, reports and anything got to do with my bloody diploma in food science technology course. I have been wondering whether is this what i really want though i wan be a Food microbiologist. Haks! there me go again. Fickle mindset! ahhaa...
Well i really want to work with the Health Science Authorities and also with music industry.
I love singing and yeah i love the piano and keyboards.
Niwaes last friday practice i just don noe why i am very different towards him. I am always wondering whether is he attached. He seems to drop at Raffles station if he were to take the MRT with me but i myself is curious on who is he meeting. Aisah why must you care of Him who don actually care about you! God damn it! It is called love. I like him and i hate it koz it is just making me answer questions and yet i have to figure out myself. Gheez!
Frankly, i think i am being paranoid lah. I wish i had a chance to have a conversation which is appropriate with him and not something technical about choir. What matters most is I like you and i don bother what people are going to say about you or my feelings.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
NP concert @ NAFA
27 april is the day where NP choir had their performance at NAFA and from my point of view it was awesome but can be better. The auditorium was full to what i observed and not forgetting i was being sabotaged by my peers to do them a big favour to give flower to Joe...of all things flower and yes on top of them despite having the bravery to sit at the front row we took lots of pictures.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Diarrhea....:<
Yesterday is so yesterday!
My mom and my bro shahril taking turns to go to the loo in the middle of the night! haha...after eating briyani they got diarrhea beb...wah sey! Me? I cannot sleep and doze off at 4am and woke up and 7am and rush to meet joanna at cck to take the psychology and counselling textbook. they i proceed to nat lib to do my proposal and chill around at city hall and window shop..wat a life..
My mom and my bro shahril taking turns to go to the loo in the middle of the night! haha...after eating briyani they got diarrhea beb...wah sey! Me? I cannot sleep and doze off at 4am and woke up and 7am and rush to meet joanna at cck to take the psychology and counselling textbook. they i proceed to nat lib to do my proposal and chill around at city hall and window shop..wat a life..
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